Tomorrow will be June 27th- Bobbi’s Birthday. My birthday (and Kira’s) was yesterday. Today we will celebrate Kira’s and mine at Kim’s house. Except for “Skype” I haven’t seen my dearest ones in over three weeks, and I can’t think of a better birthday present….. well, only one thing could make it batter, but I must find the will and the means to channel that desire into a desire to make all of our tomorrows better.

I had 8,933 days of marriage with Bobby Lynn Livengood. She gave me everything I hold most precious in the world. My family is more precious to me than I can even comprehend. That is Bobbi’s gift to me. Even the love which in my heart feels planet sized is I know a fraction of what that amazing woman was capable of feeling and giving.

And so this is, as far as I know, the last entry into this blog. It is time to focus on the living, as she would have wanted, as she in fact asked me to do. So I now wish you, my dearest darling love, my best friend, my soul mate a very happy birthday. I have at least found the courage to move on, my love. It’s not like I’m leaving you behind, because you will always be here, inside me. You’ve been carrying me long enough.

I will strive to see the world through your eyes, strive to see the best in everyone I know and meet as you did. I will try to keep earning my place in your greatest gift of love to me- our family. I go to them now, but I suspect you know that. I love you.