I’m sorry for not posting much…. It’s been a kaleidoscope of emotions this week. My house cleaning continues painfully. I asked the brain surgeon if, since he’s in there anyway, to please remove the “slob lobe”. Isn’t there a special part of the brain that causes that? Maybe I just need a transplant…. like if brother Sam could be a donor, the house would gleam! LOL
So, the surgery is in fact set- it’s April 21 at 7am. I have to be at the hospital by 5am. I hope I can sleep the night before. If I don’t get some sleep I might be grumpy and I won’t enjoy the opperation.
Easter with the family was great. First I had luncheon with my cousings and godmother (should the “g” be capitalized???). We had it at Aunt Lib and Uncle Phils house and it was a blast of nostalgia. After that it was an afternoon with “the kids”. We did the obligatory Easter egg hunt and relaxed.
Cleaning has been tough. I keep finding Bobbi. I don’t just mean her stuff, and there’s lots of that- makeup, book, address books, etc. I am also finding things she meant for me. For example, every time I’d travel she’d hide love letters and cards in my luggage. I always looked forward to that. However, the last time I went I missed some, and when I cleaned the suitcase out to give to Goodwill I found them. Damn. Things like that keep happening. Ah well.
So, a week of joy and of sadness. Yet I try to remember that it’s the joy I should focus on. Though what Bobbi had to endure was terrible, she was never alone and she was so very much loved and cherished. Though what I experienced was sad, how selfish or shortsighted to dwell on that and miss the fact that an amazing sould chose me and blessed me and made her life with me! She gave me all that I hold most precious, and her faith in me restored my own faith in myself. Her love is a gift that keeps on giving. Thank you, Bobbi.
I’ll keep you posted.