Happy Fall Y’all.
I’m glad I don’t get sick often. I’d like to think that’s from clean living….. I’m down to 222 pounds, but I’m having trouble getting below that. We’ll see. My cold is much better, but lingering. I feel like my brain is 80% back (assuming it was all there to start with of course!). I’m slowly getting my act back together.
As I’m able to think I suddenly realized all the myriad things I have to be grateful for, even a dead wife. Let me explain. Of course I should say a wife who, even though she is no longer here, loved me like nobody else. We shared a love that was Homeric, and our battle with cancer was epic, and though she did not survive it she knew (as I had because of her) that the person she loved would do everything in his power to show her love and protect her with every ounce of his strength. That’s an amazing thing. I think of this because I realized how many people I know who, though their spouse lives, are stuck in terrible situations. Loveless at best, predatory or abusive at worst, I know of many marriages that leave me concerned for friends I love. Bobbi and I had 25 years together and I cherish all of that time, even the part with cancer. That’s what I think is most tragic- not that Bobbi died, but that my marriage, even with a spouse who passed away, is better than some marriages I know where everyone lives. Is that an odd thing to think? Maybe it’s the sudafed.
Lately the house hasn’t seemed quite so…..well, I don’t know- empty of course….maybe malevolent is a better word. I know it’s all due to where my mind is at. I’d like to think I’m doing better, and so the house is less aggitating. I have been working on it. Not anything sexy like the siding, but mostly the leaky roof and the furnace. I’m even working on our bedroom again. Here’s the great news- I found something from Bobbi.
Bobbi always kept a journal, but sometimes she’d jot notes down on any handy peice of paper- a piece of gift wrap, book jacket, and even on an envelope that bills come in. That is my gift to you today. I found some note from Bobbi to all of us! I’m going to close now as soon as I write them for us here. Pray for people in troubled marriages please. Here’s our gift from my beloved Bobbi:
Nothing defines a life like friends and family.
How short a time we have! Spread the love.
Happiness will travel like water ringletts.
To all my family and friends:
Take this moment to realize-
this is all the time we have, NOW!
These are the treasures of life,
a fleeting hug and a kiss.
I love you all so much!